I've got a decision to make, and am getting oppressed to make it soon: whether to have plastic surgery done. It's not something I expected I'd ever be thinking about, and it's got me feeling very weird. But given all that's happened lately, "very weird" is becoming a little too familiar.
I'm not talking about a nose job or a face lift, but dermabrasion and skin grafts on a part of my body that I never see and few other people ever do: my back, to reduce or eliminate the scarring from the cuts I got in the accident. Apparently, the insurance company is going to foot the bill, if I want to have it done ... but I'm just not sure if I want to have it done.
Because it's just my back, it seems patently unnecessary. It's not a part of the body that most people see - so it doesn't seem to matter at all. I've never overheard a woman say "check out the back on that guy", and I don't have the sense that it's a feature anyone cares about. Besides, if things have progressed to the point I've got my shirt off, it's probably past the point of no return anyway, and I doubt that a few bumps and ridges would be a show-stopper.
At the same time, maybe it's something that will trouble me in a more practical sense. I'm already getting used to sitting upright, even though it doesn't hurt to recline against the back of a chair, though I can still feel the areas where the wounds are, or were. It's like having masking tape on your skin. In time, I'll probably get used to that, but it's annoying.
I also imagine the procedure is something like removing strips of skin with the surgical equivalent of a potato peeler, scraping out the excess tissue, and grafting on strips of skin over the top of them. Maybe skin from somewhere else on my body, which would turn half a dozen ugly wounds into a dozen less-ugly ones, or maybe using cadaver skin, which is simply gross (walking around in a dead man's skin).
Anyway, the insurance company wants to close the book on my claim and is asking for an answer soon, and I'm not sure what to tell them. Maybe I'll go in for a consult and see what it's really going to involve rather than just guessing at it. If it's just a matter of physical appearance, then I will probably pass, especially if it means more time face-down in a hospital bed. If it can reduce the discomfort and the recovery isn't too bad, maybe so.